Stranger Among Family

Who am I ? That is a question I sometimes ask myself. I sometimes feel like a stranger when I am among my family. Maybe that is my own doing. I left my parents home at the age of 18. There are a lot of things that lead up to this happening and you can never go back and change things. For my sisters it was really hard. I hurt my parents in doing this and them at that time I was young and thought I knew everything. We have many years between us girls and that is no ones fault. So, we really did not grow up to be close friends. We all get along for our parents when we are together. We do not talk on the phone or share little stories about growing up or anything that a lot of other siblings may do. Mainly with me. I have hurt them both.

With one I keep things a secret that she had asked me to do and I thought I was doing the right thing by keeping her confidence. In the end I was wrong. And I happen to be one other those people who gets upset when confronted and said things to her and my parents that I can never make up for or taken back.

My other sister and I have always been distant. I did try to make things work but when you had me as a big sister it is kind of hard to get past me being the way I was. I guess I told her I hated her and was very very mean. I never really appreciated what it was to have sisters until I was older. Now it is to late.

I want the long conversations on the phone about nothing and the spending time together being silly. But, I know in reality that will never happen. There is nothing that I can do to fix the past. I am trying to set a future.

Now, my youngest sister is getting married. I am so excited to watch her walk down the isle like I did when my middle sister got married. I still have her program from her wedding with the pictures that I took. Now, with the youngest getting married I can make scrapbook of their weddings for me to reflect back on.

These are the memories that I keep.

Do I wish we had a closer relationship? You bet. But, for me to call or stop by I just feel out of place. Like I said I am the stranger among family.

Out and About with Mom

Last Friday I had made a run up to Moose Lake, MN. I took Michael with me since he does not have school on Fridays. And it is nice to have our time together. He asked me"Mom, are there Moose in Moose Lake?" I said " I do not know I guess we will have to wait and see." So, while there we found a statue of a Moose. And then we took our pictures in front of it. Then, we decided to do a little adventuring. We headed over to the State Park that is located there and did some looking around their visitors center. Michael found out that this park is a great place to find Agates. He got a small one when we were there. I decided that this would be a good adventure for us this spring to go up there and look for cool Agates. And to top it all off it will be educational.
The kids(and me) have shown interest in Geo Caching also, But, I am trying to decide if it will be worth the expense of buying a GPS unit for this adventure. So if anyone want to get one for me I will not protest. Hint hint hint

Round Robin Challenge - Shoes

Welcome to this round of my Round Robin Challenge. I really had a hrd time with this one. Ithought about going to the shoe store and taking pictures and then I thought about just pulling all my shoes out of the closet, and then it came to me. I would photograph shoes of my family. Since I was surrounded by my family this week. So, while we were having a big family dinner I proceeded to tell every one show me your shoes. And these are the pictures I got.These are my shoes. If you were to see them

now You would be sad. My Dog ate the sole.

This is my sisters shoe She would only let me see one

This is my cousin's shoes. She gave me a nice pose.

These are my girl friend boots. She is a boot girl.

Here we have a dual pose. My aunt and uncle giveing me there best shoe on

and shoe off pose will my uncle joining in.

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Family

This past week I went to Green Bay, WI for the first time in many many years. It was really hard to go because I was going to say good bye to my Grandmother. I had to remember to celebrate her life not be so sad that she was gone. Which for me is very hard to do. I just get so sad and am still forgetting that my mom has passed and I will begin to think oh, I need to to tell mom this. Then I remember oh, she already knows.
So, while in Green Bay spent some quality time with my Aunts and Uncles. I stopped by my Aunt Janets house. (which happens to be my childhood home). I walked around the house and remembered how it was when I was a kid.
Drove by lots of places that hold memories for me.
I also took lots of pictures of myself with my family. Usually, I am the one who takes all the pictures and I do not come out from behind the camara. But, I have begun to realize I need these photos of myself with people I care about. So, now begins the all the pictures that I took because all everyone said was will we see these on your Blog.
For all of you who wanted to see yourself on the blog here we go.
I added a slide show above for all to see.