SORROW

My life has lots of saddness these past few months. I am fully depressed. I fight the tears, the anger and the pain. I always try to push it away. I have begun to talk with someone about these issues I have. My biggest fear is letting go. I am afraid of what will happen if I break down. My family needs me strong for me to become a pile would show weakness. I had received good news yesterday and was thinking all the bad luck was now going away. Until last night when I get a phone call informing me that my grandmother has passed. I thought it was a dream I had to call my dad this morning to varify that I was not dreaming. Now again I must tell my children that another Grandma has passed on. For me that is the hardest thing to do. Now, I have to be strong for them. When all I want to do is curl up in a ball and be left alone in my sorrow.